Battles

I'm in a state of constant deliberation:

Should I take a nap? or clean?
Should I prepare for my lesson? or take a nap?
Should I take a nap? or attempt to organize the (messy and chaotic) craft room?
Should I start dinner? or take a nap?
Should I take a nap? or get together a picnic lunch to the zoo?
Should I let my kids watch a movie? and take a nap?

My brain is not adjusted to my body's needs and my head's wants. My tendency is to stay up late; work on projects, read, sew, socialize, maybe watch a tv show. My body does just fine waking up at 5am, and getting to Seminary to teach from 6-6:45. I do just fine when I get home and help get the girls ready for school. But around 10am I start to drag, and the only thing I can think of is, "Can I take a nap? when can I take a nap?" Don't even ask me about the 2pm time slot. I am pretty sure my brain is afunctional and I'm running on autopilot.

The teaching part is going rather well, I think. Maybe my students think differently. I don't know if we have the same goals in mind. I'm hoping we do! The subject material is just now starting to get good (we're done with the "Intorduction"; no more "this is the book," and "this is where the book came from" and "this is what we're going to teach you about this book"; finally we're going to start actually discussing what we'll read in the book!)

I have so many things I want to do (sew, read, play). I have many other things I need to do (make meals, laundry, attempt to keep a picked-up house). And oh-so-much-more that I really should do (organize that craft room, really clean my house, visit teach, etc).

I'm struggling to find balance. Balance time with my children (quality time, too), keeping my house kept up, making sure there are socks and underwear in everybody's drawer (including my own!), getting enough of the right groceries, catching up on my friends' lives through blogs, sewing, reading (I'm working on Count of Monte Cristo; at the rate I'm going it really is going to take me a year to read! 3-5 pages a night of a 1500 page book...)

I'm not sure what to do. Definitely try to get to bed earlier. Maybe try to read faster? Fold laundry faster? Get rid of all the toys so I don't have to clean them up?

My sister gave me this great keychain that had a little rock with a word carved in it. I've gone through periods of knowing where the little rock is, using it, and losing it. Right now I have no idea where that little rock is. Want to know what the word inscribed on it?